Little Hooligan

I love him, I’ve always loved him. Problem is, I let him go. How do you get someone back when you haven’t talked to them in so long and they have moved on. How do you make someone remember why they fell in love with you in the first place. I can’t lose him. He’s the only one who can make me feel so happy when I’m down, and make me feel beautiful when I’ve never felt it before. He made me feel special, like no one else mattered, like I was his princess, that feeing every girl wants and I had it, but I was so scared and ran away. I try to tell him how I feel (over text) and he tells me to “leave him alone”. Would he say that to me in person? Chances are, no. Prom, he saw me, I saw him looking,  but was it just coincidence. I need him back. No one else gets it, they just tell me to move on, problem is, when you love someone this much you can’t let them go, because you don’t get lucky twice and I know I will never feel like this about anyone else ever again, I know it. He’s everything to me. I know so much about him, and every other girl he talks to doesn’t know nearly as much. Why can’t he just see that I was stupid and wrong and made a mistake, a big one, but I’m here now and I’m ready to love him. To any guys out there, help me out. And to any girls, I know some of you have been here, don’t just say “move on” because you know it’s not that easy. I feel like all the late night conversations, good morning texts, good night texts, and more are just gone, completely erased from his memory, but I can’t seem to forget any of it as hard as I try. I replay it all in my head. I miss him so much it hurts beyond belief. I was always there for him. I love him. I can’t let this go.